I wasn’t sure what to write for today’s post. I’ve been publishing for 47 days straight. I feel like I’ve exhausted everything Bipolar, or at least my experience with it to date. When I set out on this blogging journey, I promised myself that it would be a fun creative project and it has been. I’ve enjoyed crafting stories and exploring my writing capabilities.
I have a handful of steady followers and I don’t them to feel like I’m stretching to create content. I don’t want my readers to be bored. So, I guess the questions are, ‘Do I continue trying to post every day, communicating what it is like living with Bipolar? Or do I only post when inspired by some event or revelation? Are people going to stay interested and keep coming back if I write about subjects other than Bipolar?’
I guess I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself. With the ebb and flow of my illness, it’s easy to let projects slide and I don’t want that to happen with this. I’m proud of the work that I’ve been doing. Heck, I had my logo put on coffee cups for myself! I’m afraid that if the blog lays dormant for any length of time that I’ll lose my audience and the drive to contribute.
Maybe I need to give myself permission to adjust my expectations for this space. Maybe if I curb what I feel I need to get done, I won’t be so hard on myself if I only post every other day. I don’t know. I just don’t want this blog to feel like a job, a chore. It hasn’t so far, I love doing it.
So maybe moving forward, I explore other areas of my life when I don’t have a Bipolar tie-in. I hope that’s ok, writing about exercising or my salty mini schnauzer, parenting or just regular life. Because I love expressing myself in this forum and I love looking at the analytics and seeing where my visitors are from and what posts are being read. It helps me to feel seen, heard.
Thank you so much for reading and I hope this makes sense. If there is a post tomorrow, fabulous. If not, know that I am ruminating on what to write about next. There will be more posts. Have an amazing Thursday!